Thursday, March 31, 2016
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What? I'm not angry! I'm not angry. I'm scared. What are you scared of? Everything! I know you think that if I take my medication every day, that everything will go back to normal. But it's bigger than that. What is Eli doing with his eyes? Have you noticed that? No. Is he doing that at school? I don't know. No one's called me about it. You can't wait for someone to call you about it! You have to call them. Kids could be making fun of him. You've got to call the teacher on Monday. First thing. You've got to radio Promise me you'll call the teacher on Monday. I promise, Laney. I'll make sure he's okay. Don't worry about it. I need to tell you some things. Some really ed up things I did when I wasn't thinking clearly and I want you to know them. So we can start fresh. I don't want to do this now, Laney. It's important for me, that I, that I radio I need to radio Come on kids. That's enough. Let's go. Sit down. How many cupcakes did you eat? One. One? Liar. She ate two. Okay. Bye, Mommy! Bye, baby! Oh, it's so good to see you! It's so good to see you. I brought you something. You did? I made this for you. Dream catcher! No more bad dreams. Thank you. E, thank you. I love it. I love it. It's beautiful. Neither of them will ever know how hard I tried to not hurt them. Am I gonna this up? I don't want to this up. I don't want to this up. Well, you're gonna up sometimes. You're gonna say things that you regret, you're gonna do things that you're not proud of, and then you're gonna remember that you're a human being. We all have our moments. But when you came here, you made a conscious decision. And that was to live. Nobody tells you that it's terrifying, you know, to love something so much. Well, yeah. You're going to have to find a way to face your terror. And, uh, you're going to have to decide what it is you want. Right. What do you want? I've made really shitty decisions my whole life. And I just radio I need to remember how to be a good wife, and a good mother, and a real person. I want to smile like I did the first time I saw Janey walk across a room. I'd love to smile like that again. You know? It might not happen right away. You might have to wait for a bit. Look, everything beautiful, every moment of beauty, it goes away. Fades. But then there's another one, and another one, and another one. And you just have to be alive to see it. Keep taking your meds. Have faith in yourself. Eli, you want to help us ice the cake? No, thanks. It's not the way I pictured it. It's not perfect. What? It is perfect. What are you talking about? I don't know why you're crying. This cake is beautiful. Isn't it, E? I like it. See? All right, basement's dry. What's going on? She doesn't like her cake. What? Janey, that's a great cake! That's the best cake I've ever seen. Really? Really. Hey, can I smell it? Does it smell as good as it looks? Okay. Mmm Daddy! Yeah, that smells good. Your nose! What? Your nose! What? What's wrong with my nose? You have something on your nose. What? I don't see anything. Your nose! Right there. What? I want to smell it! Okay! Oh, my gosh! You got a little something. What? Just a little radio Smell it, Mommy! I'm want to smell it. Can I smell it? Oh, my gosh! That's the best smelling cake I've ever smelled. Come on, E. You want to smell it? What? Mommy! Oh, it's all right, muffin. It's just the electricity. It'll come back in a few minutes. Janey, look at this. This one is just for you. This little light of mine I'm gonna let it shine This little light of mine I'm gonna let it shine Let it shine, let it shine, let it shine. Down in my heart, I'm gonna let it shine Down in my heart, I'm gonna let it shine Down in my heart I'm gonna let it shine Let it shine, let it shine Let it shine Are you kidding me? You can do better than that. What concerns me are the rituals. The eye blinking, the constant pencil sharpening. Recently, he started a pattern with tapping his feet. These behaviors suggest anxiety. The rituals are a way for Eli to stay in control. It's not unusual, but the rituals can become a problem when they get in the way of functioning. When they become all consuming. So, what do we do? In my opinion, Eli needs to see a specialist. Perhaps start with cognitive behavioral therapy. Or, perhaps, he can even benefit from medication. Medication? It's my fault. He's got my genes. Stop it. Did you go to rehab because you're a drug addict? No. Why radio Why would you think that? John Frye said you're a drug addict? Mommy, drugs are bad. That's not why she was there, E. John Frye is just trying to get your goat. Eli doesn't have a goat. Then why were you there? I was having some problems in my mind. And they were making me do things I shouldn't have done. Then why did you do them? Well, it's complicated. But, um, but I saw a doctor who was really, really smart. And he helped me sort through my problems. And now I'm better. Did Mr. Odesky tell you to send me to rehab too? No. No, no, no. Mom, look at this one. It's so cool. Really cool. Eli! Hey, Henry! Hey, look who it is. Hey. Hi, Donny. Hi, Henry. Hey, it's good to see you back. Oh, it's good to be radio It's good to be back. Which one are you getting? I have to see what I can afford. I'd get a superhero if I were you, Eli. Now, I don't know about you guys, but I have always wanted to be the kind of superhero that swoops into the burning building and then rescues the woman and flies her off to safety. Well, you can't be Batman 'cause he doesn't fly. Right. And SpiderMan doesn't really fly. He swings. Well, what do you guys think about Superman? What do you think, Laney? I think I could be a good Superman. I think you're already a superhero, Donny. Laney! It's so good to see you. I've missed you. I radio I didn't know that you were pregnant. You're glowing! Oh, bullshit. I look like shit. I feel like shit. But I'm almost halfway through, thankfully. Oh, my gosh! Congratulations! Thanks. Hey, did you get my message about my birthday party? I did. I'm sorry, I did. It's fine, I just want to make sure you know,
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